The 'Satan is a Punk' high school years. I was really into my Christian title and equally into all things music. I wore slangy Berean t-shirts and spent every Friday night at a show. My spirituality was just being defined as my own but I was heavily influenced by large-group gatherings that included 'winning' people for Jesus and 'taking back' culture. I was also heavily influenced by Emery and Anberlin. Thank God.
The Rosie the Riveter era. The years where I believed I could do anything! This was the season of finishing school, starting a career, traveling the world, trying new things, and befriending anyone who came across my path. I had discovered my God-given abilities and was using them to their fullest potential. Still, I struggled to define what I was most gifted in and most passionate about as I put my whole heart into everyone and everything I encountered.
The Outdoor Educator seasons. Times where walking, talking, and observing were a way of life. My work became my play as I spent hours on the trail with kids and coworkers alike. My soul dug a little deeper and I discovered the need to journal, sketch, and sing in the forest. I asked a lot of questions and was asked a lot of questions, many I still I have not found answers to. Jesus felt so close. Whenever I think of this time I smell dirt--rich, dark, loamy soil. My head still has not forgiven my heart for ending this stage of life so abruptly.
Over the past three years, it seems every season, every week, multiple times a day I am experiencing a different title: Broken Woman, Healing Heart, Grateful Daughter, Shepherd, Loved and Loving Wife. All of these times have been surrounded by a wonderful community of family and friends, some who have supported me through different stages. God has remained consistent though has been experienced differently in every era. I love that.
So what era would I say I am in now?
I have told Ben multiple times that I think he married a cat. Whenever he sits down I want to snuggle, I get cranky when I haven't been fed, and I sleep long hours. I am constantly cold and crave the sunshine.
But I hope I am more than just that.
I am in a season of loving and protecting the Least Of These in my community, including a host of amazing children.
I am learning what my body needs and finding the difficult balance between work and rest.
I am prioritizing time with my family, my friends, and my incredible husband.
I am growing in my knowledge and understanding of the world and finding the glimmers of Light to hold onto.
I am simultaneously weaker and more powerful now than I was before.
So I think this is my time to be a cat.
This is my Lioness era.
Roar.
